George Floyd was murdered under color of authority

When the fight’s over, it’s over. No amount of respect for policing should ever excuse criminal cops.

My friends, I’m struggling this morning. I’ve struggled all week since the murder of George Floyd. At first I couldn’t even process the cold insensitivity I watched on the video. A public servant, entrusted to maintain law and order, completely indifferent to human life. I’ve watched that video multiple times, trying to figure out how to understand the actions of those public servants. I cannot imagine how traumatic this is for Black Americans to witness another Black man killed right before their eyes.

Every once in a while, a video comes along that is completely indefensible. Right now I cannot excuse is the deafening silence from my policing peers. Silence is complicity. Silence is consent. If we do not condemn wrongdoing publicly and loudly, we are lost. Our silence tells the world we’re okay with one of our peers calmly kneeling on a man’s neck for seven minutes and killing him under color of authority.

When the fight or resistance ends, it’s over. Period. And, no, we’re not going to get into adrenaline and all that as an excuse. It’s real in some cases, but that’s what your partners are for. That didn’t happen here. Also, an experienced professional should be able to draw some calming breaths and get control in much less than seven minutes. Let’s leave that there.

Here’s what happens in those horrific seven minutes. Three of these cops are on the man’s back, one calmly pressing his knee into his neck. There is no resistance because only the officers knee is pressing into his neck, he doesn’t use his hands, which means there is no struggle. The man begs for air, the officer calmly remains on his neck. The man makes a feeble attempt to rise—no doubt trying to survive, not resist. The officer remains on his neck. The man goes silent. The officer remains on his neck. The man goes limp. The officer calmly remains on his neck. The paramedic comes and checks his pulse. The cop calmly, callously, remains on his neck.

Not one of the other officers appears to register alarm or tell their fellow cop to get off his neck. Not one. If they do, the cop ignores it and calmly keeps kneeling on his neck.

Most of us have been there, subduing a person for whatever crime. When you are straddling a person’s body you can feel their movement, tension, shifting, and struggle beneath you. You feel the moment when the struggle stops. The movement ceases. And when that happens, you are the professional. You are supposed to stop as well. This is the part I cannot wrap my head around. When the fight is over, it’s over. When the human tells you they are in distress, it’s your job to summon help. When they stop fighting you, it’s your job to stop all force. When they stop breathing, it is your job to start life saving efforts.

There is no gray area here. That is the job. Prisoners in our custody are our responsibility. Yet, there are far too few voices from our side of the thin blue line calling for accountability. I’m struggling with why not. I’m struggling with how the vast majority of us have gone silent. I’m appalled that a fellow cop could calmly, callously, press his knee into the neck of a non-combative human, ignore his pleas for help, ignore his pleas for air, feel the moment when he goes limp, and keep kneeling on his neck without so much as a change in expression on his face.

I’m not okay with this. Those cops do not represent me. They do not represent the profession I belonged to for twenty-five years. They do not represent the humanity and courage of those good cops I was proud to serve beside. They, and those like them must be purged from our profession with impunity. This cannot stand. These horrors cannot continue.

Right now we need to ask ourselves who we are. Are we the heroes we want everyone to see us as or are we cowards? Why do we have the courage to run toward gunfire but not to tell our fellow cops to get the hell off a guy’s neck? Are we so invested in our membership in the brotherhood of the badge that we can’t call out bad behavior in our own house? Have we so convinced ourselves of our own infallibility that we cannot tolerate any insinuation that any one of us might be wrong? Do we believe that because the job is dangerous and any one of us might fall is a reason to never speak ill of another cop, even when they are unethical or even criminal?

My brothers and sisters in blue, we must stand against this. We must own the damage done by a long line of cops who did not deserve to wear your badge. We must reclaim our honor. We must stand for the rule of law. We must call out crimes under color of authority when we see them so that the citizens of our country know we care. Only then will we begin to heal. Only then will the bloodshed cease on all sides.

A fellow cop and dear friend told me through tears yesterday: African Americans are all screaming: We can’t breathe in America!

Riots are raging and cities are burning. The howl of pain from the unheard that Dr. King told us about fifty years ago. George Floyd was murdered under color of authority. We must not look away. We must own it and work to ensure it never happens again.

13 thoughts on “George Floyd was murdered under color of authority

  1. The silence of the majority of law enforcement is deafening.
    The riots are a result of the constant turning a blind eye to the injustices encountered by the black community.
    When people feel the criminal justice system is incapable of giving them justice they stop wanting justice and start wanting revenge. I guarantee you now that Minneapolis is more likely to do something to address their problematic police force and other municipalities are now aware that this could happen if they don’t make substantial changes in their policing practices.

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      • How can you agree with a comment suggesting the majority of law enforcement has been silent? From what I’ve seen, no one is defending Chauvin’s actions. Even the national FOP and Calibre Press, two entities who typically give officers the benefit of the doubt far beyond what some consider reasonable, have spoken out. You typically make good points in your writing about how to improve the profession, but this seems a little off.


      • Well, those comments were from May 29th, and the national leadership was decidedly silent several weeks ago. In fact as of that day, nobody in law enforcement was even calling this murder, nor was most media. Everyone was saying, “The death of George Floyd in police custody.” There’s a subtle difference that doesn’t accept blame. I even gave this essay a less confrontational title at first. Then I said, No. It was a murder under color of authority. And it is. Yes, the national police orgs are speaking out now that the civil unrest has sadly also shown more unprofessional, and sometimes violent backlash from police, and cops are getting injured and killed In riots that are the result of systemic issues once again sparked by a senseless killing. This one happened to be more overtly depraved than anything since Rodney King.

        I have always tried to speak truthfully to my former peers. Yes, it’s been a pretty ugly couple of weeks, but I’d argue it is the result of decades of misconduct that has been largely ignored. I’m not talking about shootings. I’m talking about every day police behavior toward Black Americans. You think Chauvin’s misconduct & hatred started that day? Not by a long shot. There are databases with dirty cops in CA, and nationwide, they keep getting their jobs back or moving onto another city and nobody has lifted a finger to stop it. The reckoning is here. I pray that finally, finally, the image of a cold, cruel murder, on camera, with absolutely no hesitation or apparent humanity will result in change needed so very long.


      • (I didn’t see a reply button for your response to my comment, so I’m using the one for your original comment.)
        That’s a reasonable explanation…I stand corrected.
        I hope we agree that the lack of support for Chauvin’s actions is a significant change for policing. I typically avoid corporate buzzwords, but it’s truly a paradigm shift. But neither of us is naive…whether the incident and its aftermath are sufficient to drive sustained systemic change remains to be seen.

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  2. Thank you so very much for your words. Thank you for standing up and saying it was wrong, and describing what should have been done. I so appreciate your speaking out.
    I fear for this country. I fear for people of color. I fear for people unable to go out and do the regular things I really never worry about as a white woman😞😞😞
    I am hoping beyond hope that change will happen and people will listen and the police will speak out against those who are not doing their jobs correctly. My heart is sick. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts.

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  3. An excellent post, I’d like to share with my twitter friends many of whom are serving UK officers or retired UK officers. Do you have a Twitter account so that I can credit you properly? Mine is @julieanneda AKA Wolfie Jules


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